Meditative Drawing into deep thought

I have been working on my deep thought process while humming as I work on drawings in a meditative state. I have always felt a bit vulnerable about making a sound especially on Zoom as I am Deaf and unable to hear myself. I always feel a bit nervous and uncomfortable about making sounds, after being told for years to shut up and not talk, keep voice down even when I talked in a low voice but simply told to be quiet because some people didn't want to hear my deaf voice. That would enrage me and I felt ignored and in time it made me nervous and wary of using my voice in certain situations in fear of being judged. While I work at these drawings while thinking about specific things such as my day, a time in the past in my life, a situation or something I have been doing, I allow myself to get lost in thought and hum away while drawing and using colours that are either muted, bright or neutral. This series is a work in progress currently and ongoing for as long as needed.

Can I Do This? - 76 x 59 cm charcoal and mixed on paper

Is This Possible? - 76 x 59 cm charcoal and mixed on paper

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